You Are a Jam Cookie

On the outside, you project a straight-laced, innocent vibe. But on the inside, you're complex, exotic, and full of flavor.

Y’know what would be good right now? ‘Now’ as in late in the afternoon and you’re lounging around the house after you’ve checked your emails and realized that you have tonnes of work to do next week when you get back to the office? A crunchy super-sized double choc chip cookies which I made TWO YEARS AGO, following The Rock’s favourite choc chip cookie recipe, except I replaced one cup of flour with cocoa powder. Yes, that The Rock.

Ingredients
220g unsalted butter 
1 cup granulated sugar
1 cup brown sugar
2 eggs
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
2 cups flour (or do like I did: 1 cup flour and 1 cup cocoa powder)
2 1/2 cups quick oatmeal, blended to a fine powder in a food processor
1/2 teaspoon salt
1 teaspoon baking powder
1 1/2 cups chocolate chips
4 ounces Hershey Bars, grated
1 1/2 cups chopped nuts (any kind will do, but I love walnut and hazelnut mix)

Directions
Preheat oven to 190°C.
Cream butter, granulated sugar and brown sugar. Stir in eggs and vanilla.
Blend in flour, oatmeal, salt, and baking powder.
Add chocolate chips, grated chocolate and nuts.
Roll dough into 3/4- to 1-inch balls and place them 2 inches apart on a lightly greased cookie sheet.
Bake 20 minutes or until browned to suit.

I love ‘em crunchy, so I left ‘em longer in the oven. But the official taster back then, ie my youngest brother, didn’t like ‘em “burnt”. Pffft, he’s only 16, what does he know about gourmet stuff? Heh…

And you know what will go well with the chocolate chip cookies? A nice hot cup of tea with a dollop of honey. I know I know. Usually people take cookies with milk, but like the majority of Asians, I’m lactose intolerant. So there.

You know… I’m borderline OCD about organization. To me, organization and planning is important. I know my need for organization freaks people out, so I try to not imposed my OCD on other people. I’d like to expect other people to extend me the same courtesy, whereby when it comes to dealing with me, they understand that I need the structure and organization. I mean, you can laugh at me, but don’t try to involve me in your unorganized, last-minute plans. Having said that... I know that this is the real world and shit happens.

I can’t help but feel offended when other people throws off my schedule. Like, if I scheduled a meeting at 10AM, please don’t tell me to cancel it the last minute because you committed my attendance to another last-minute meeting that you arranged without consulting my calendar. And since my meeting is of high priority, and yours is just a greet-and-meet, why should I cancel my meeting for yours? Just because you think that the meeting is high priority to you, doesn’t mean that it has to be mine as well.

When there’s clashes, I have to prioritized, don’t I?

I’ve been trying to convince myself that… Person A… just thinks differently than I, that Person A is more of an impulsive, non-planner type. That doesn’t make Person A a bad person, and I should just try to understand Person A’s point-of-view. I’m reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally trying. I’m trying not to feel offended, because Person A probably didn’t mean to… but still I can’t help myself.

I need to take a Zen-like approach to this situation and just… let it go. *breathes out*

Tough week, this week.

Thank science next week I’ll be on leave.

I’m actually relieved that Twilight sucked. In fact, it’s lame. But you know how most of the 80s teen movies are lame, but they’re considered as cult hits now? Yeah, I think that is the route of Twilight.

The book was ok for me, because I made myself think like a 14yo girl when I was reading the book and eye-rolls were cut to a minimum, but when you actually see the visuals in the movie… science! They were funny because they were taking themselves too seriously. Edward the vampire had a constant constipated expression in 90% of the movie. I don’t know if it was just bad acting, or if the director made him do that because she thought that’s how ‘conflicted’ supposed to look like.

Ah, but the only saving grace was Bella. I read some gossips on the net that the actress, Kristen Stewart, refused to say some lines that she considered as too cheesy, as per the book. Smart girl! Bella in the movie is not as fragile as Bella from the book, and doesn’t spout brie-filled lines as Bella Book too. Bella Movie is still too cute though, IMO. As for the vampire Edward, played by Rob Pattinson, well, you know how I feel about his constipated expressions. My favourite scene of Edward was when he and Bella was at the school parking lot, ‘subtly’ announcing their ‘commitment’ to the kids, and he was all smily and smug. Why can’t he be that way in at least 50% of the movie?? Oh Stephenie Meyer, I blame thee.

When people ask me about the plot of Twilight, I usually love to say that it’s like, if you’re in love with a caramel frappuccino… it’s SO delicious and you want to drink it up, but you’re in love with it that you can’t! Oh, conflicted!

I know they’re already working on the sequels, and thank science that there’s only 4 books in the series… I don’t think the earth population need to be exposed to so much lame-ness in a lifetime.

It has been a week since my close friend, Sha, passed away.

I would’ve wrote something earlier, but… I only had the courage to write it now. And I was only able to make myself login to Facebook today, which is where I took the above pic from.

Sha was a beautiful person, inside and out.

Some days it feels like everything is normal, and some days the hurt is just paralyzing.

You will always be missed, Sha.